get myself organized

I can’t live like this much longer. I need chaos in my life, I know, but this is just impossible. I need organized chaos… maybe I need to create THAT as a goal? Anyway….. gotta make this happen….

What things in my life have to change to work toward it? My choices have to support my dreams and goals, or they are just really just fantasies and not real at all.

And has stayed that way for a week now. lol
Getting there in other areas…. just trying to stay consistent.

Little, consistent steps. I want to enjoy this summer, so let’s see what I can get done before June 21st. :)

But this is more important than ever. I know I will be heading away from home in the near(-ish?) future and really don’t want to leave a total mess behind for my folks. Yikes!

So, somehow I pulled myself through a marathon afternoon/evening of cleaning, sorting, and pitching things…. there is so much more that has to be done, but I’m pleased with my progress today. And also my awareness of what I need and what I don’t need… what I need to find/purchase to meet my needs and such…. hard to explain, also tough to do… but I’m going to get there, somehow!!

Total disaster area, but I’m back on the idea of what I was up to several months ago… only better than before. I’m really figuring out where to put things, how to manage, and of course letting more things go…. little bit at a time, though… that’s all there is time for. :(

My life has had a real turn around in recent weeks and as a result I’m doing tons of (good!) things that I haven’t been able to do for a long time, if ever! The latest manifestation of this is cleaning, throwing out things I never thought I’d let go of, and organising bit by bit in a way I’ve never been able to do before. It’s kind of like watching somebody else doing this for me… only I’m the one who is tired at the end of the day! LOL

I plan to keep with it, bit by bit, and hopefully I’ll just wake up one day and see this aspect of my life totally turned around too. That’s what I’m trusting and praying for! :)

This is not an easy task but, even with not being able to be consistent with it rightn now, I can see how the things I have managed to do are helping everytime I am able to get back it, or need to try to find something, or whatever. It gives me the underlying motivation to keep at it, even when it seems hopeless.

No fear! (Did you know the getting cleaned and organised is an extreme sport?! ;)

... but I’m still mostly going forward.

That’s the theme statement for my life at the moment as it is. But it definitely applies to the entire organisation thing.

As I have strength and a bit of time, I try to tackle little things. So, all in all, I’m getting there. Gotta start picking up the pace though!!

... I’m determined to make progress anyway! Yesterday I went nuts attacking a specific area, and wow – it’s so cool to actually know where a lot of things are. And this one area looks GREAT! I am so tired, but so proud of myself. :) SO much left to do, but progress is progress, and it’s also motivating. I’ll take a few days off and get back at it again… hopefully I won’t go too nuts though, it takes too much out of me. But it’s almost worth it! ;)