love myself

I have always loved John Lennon and The Beatles, but I came across this site today.. http://100acorns.blogspot.com/
and it’s by Yoko Ono giving little inspiring ‘acorns’.
They’re really simple things to do.
So cute.
I’m going to try to do one every day.
Man, she’s awesome.

that this is my body, my only life, and that I need to make the best of it. I have a semi-awareness of this, but it still hasn’t fully hit me yet. My mind can’t wrap around the idea that I can’t change my body and I’m stuck like this.

and my self-esteem goes up after a workout. I should definitely do this more. Also, when I do yoga and I achieve a new pose,I feel great. I need to do this more often.

of this goal. I’ve been feeling down lately because I haven’t been loving myself.

but I’ve been feeling great about myself lately.

Skin color issue is coming into play again..
I want this negative self-criticizing voice out of my head.
Now!

by exercising, getting enough sleep, taking care of my skin, and eating properly. For the most part. Sometimes I’ll skip a day of exercising, I’ll go to bed late, I’ll forget to wash my face or I’ll eat a bag of chips. But I didn’t ask for perfection, just improvement.

I’m definitely feeling better about myself.

“love myself” doesn’t just apply to appearance. It means taking care of your body by giving it good foods, exercising and pampering it every once in a while. Although my big issue is still appearance, I need to take care of my body. I only got one, and my mind will function better for school as well if I take care of my body. :)

I think it’s important to have a clear goal and a plan on how to get there. ‘Love myself’ is so vague, it can mean so many different things to different people.

This goal will take a long time to complete since I’ve had this problem for as long as I can remember. I think I will have this goal completed when I can say “I love myself!” and mean it, and not compare myself to others and criticize myself.

My major self-esteem issue is my skin color. I don’t even understand why. My mom is white, my dad is white and a little bit of something else. It’s that little bit of something else that really bothers me. I don’t even know what rationality I am, but I have this tan skin that makes me feel ugly all the time. I wish I had pale, white skin. But I don’t. I need to accept that. It’s really hard though, especially when my best friend has gorgeous skin that I would do anything to have..

And there you go. I’m comparing myself again.

I think that my first part of this goal will be to write down all the positive things about myself. I will look at this list everyday, and tell myself I love myself and look in the mirror. I will be happy, even if it kills me!

This is the hardest goal I’ve ever had. I’ve struggled with it my whole life, with extreme low self esteem. I’ve had depression and I always blamed my lack of self confidence on my problems. I’ve gotten a little bit better, but not as well as I should be. I’m tired of letting this control my life. I want to happy, confident, and not self-conscious.

Before I can love myself however, I need to accept myself. Flaws and all. It’s going to be hard, but it’s something I need to do.