stop making excuses

I have been making excuses on why I want what I want.

“I need it…I want it…it’s mine…it doesn’t belong to anyone else…why would it have happened this way if….”

The excuses are maddening! I have to stop and let go! No more excuses on this issue. I’m letting go and things are what they are.

I totally surrender!

It’s my stupid insecurities!

I should have gone, but I didn’t. He’s come to everything that I have and I still made stupid excuses.

I’m sad.

and that’s an understatement…

to begin with the weight issue. I cannot ever remember not being a little round. It progressively got worse over time and now I’m in a place where I’m not happy.

Excuse after excuse I’ve made about why I’m the weight that I am-why I must stay this way-why I’m happier like this.

But you know, I gotta stop with the excuses!

It’s my turn and this time I’m not doing it for anybody except for me. I love me, and I want to be happy.

I want to lose this weight!!

I feel that this is something that I always do! It is like I have in mind something that I really want, but I’ll make excuses on why it can’t happen or why I can’t have it! That’s just crazy. One of my friends got tired of me whining and gave me a book called Put Your Big Girl Panties on and Deal with it. I laughed when I saw it and just looked at her as if to say, “Tryna tell me something?” Of course, I’ve made excuses on why I can’t read it! Ha!

HELP!