live for God

I am still determined to do this. I added this goal on here Saturday night. Today is Wednesday and I have been faced with some of the hardest situations. I asked myself why I can’t trust people that I go to church with. It seems there will be one person I think I can trust and then I realize that I can’t. But another question followed that question and it really sealed it for me. Why can’t I trust God as much as I want to trust those people?

Lord, I let it go. I let it all go. Please allow me to see You even when I am faced with all sorts of circumstances. Let me trust You more than I trust them. Let me depend on You and more than I depend on them. Let me see Your love and devotion.

the importance of this was stressed by my parents. They did it and wanted us to. I don’t see anything wrong with that because one day I hope to stress to my kids God’s love and how living for Him is a way to show Him how much we love Him.

I always assumed that I was doing it, but recently, I’ve taken some inventory on this. Wow…the results. I realized that every time that I’m all like, here’s a problem…oh, I’ll handle it like this (not praying about, not asking for help, or even trying to see what God’s will is) I was wrong! I’ve been living for myself. Where did God come in? Where did trusting God come in?

What does live for God really mean? I think it means that I need to reverence Him as Lord of my life and stop putting myself in the driver’s seat all the time. I need to be the passenger and allow God the steering wheel for a change! I mean, duh, Olivia!