list 100 random things about myself

I have fallen for a guy that I can’t fathom being without, yet I have doubts that I will actually be with him.

I want so badly to take my life in my own hands and handle it, but I cannot do that and trust God too. I’m having trouble surrendering.

I am afraid that I will gain the weight back.

I am tired of being the big girl.

I am very close to finishing grad school! I am so excited about it!

I am in love with Anthony Evans!

www.anthony-evans.com

I want to play golf.

I am finally losing weight!

It feels weird that people are noticing it. I have all these mixed emotions. It is like, “What did I look like before?” and it is like, “They actually noticed”! It is also a tremendous pressure.

I have always been the little chubby kid in school or wherever you go. Low in confidence…feeling awkward…always last…always alone…the usual symptoms. And now I’m like, “FINALLY!”

I have a great friend at work, but I knew him once upon a time…

I never really knew him when we were growing up, but it has been nice getting to know him…again.

I just realized this weekend that when I was fourteen I wrote about him three times in my journal. That’s pretty amazing. I always wondered what happened to him. I am glad I am getting a chance to really know him.

I love spending time with my sisters.

They are both so very different, and they both have a very different idea of fun. I find that with my older sister I can be the grown up Liv. I can discuss books, life, future, and everything with her. She sees me for who I will be, and we are really good friends.

With my younger sister, I am the younger Liv. The one that plays games, goes to arcades… We spend time talking about our childhood, reliving our wishes and dreams from long ago. We also talk about our futures too. We are really good friends.

I am glad I have these relationships with them. I wish they could know this with each other…

I listen to other music to find the spirituality that God has placed inside of all of us.

I believe that there is a hunger for God that utterly shows in all of us. I am determined to find this in secular music because it is so there. If you doubt me, listen to Ben Harper’s song, “Faithfully Remain.”

I love this song…