not be so negative

One thing this website has been good for for me is to better understand how depressing I am all the time. . . how negative. Even when I had a job I was bad, now I’m a zillion times worse. And, I wonder why I have a hard time making friends. . . now that I can see this about myself, that’s easier to understand. . . NOW, how to change it?

Do you ever catch yourself doing that pinched nose thing? Like when you’re completely exasperated with either yourself or others. . . I like. suck the sides of my nose in which makes the lines around my mouth get lots deeper and I just EXUDE negativity! Do ya? Or, along with the nose thing is the side of the mouth pinchy thing. . .like you’re thinking OH YEAH, RIGHT (usually accompanied with bugging eyeballs)! I need to NOT do these things as they only lead to more negativity and wrinkles. Also, since in my non-smiling state people think I’m sad or depressed (even though I may not be) this attitude doesn’t help. I HATE it when people look at me and say SMILE – I want to slap the peepee out of them! I just have THAT KIND OF FACE if I’m not smiling, people think I’m about to slit my wrists! So anyhow, along with everything else on my list I’m all down and out, let’s just add this one shall we!?