be a better sister

I decided to cut my losses, lose the fight, and give in to my family. I went home for the holidays. Though I will never forget the way they treated me, I got the pleasure of seeing my nephews and their beautiful little faces light up when they saw their auntie. It was an even greater pleasure giving my oldest nephew a brand new ipod for christmas.

We haven’t spoken in months. I am so tired of the fighting, I give up. I am heart-broken because I won’t get to see my nephews who live so far away. I’m still sending them christmas presents, but this is the first year that I won’t get to see their sweet little faces open up those gifts. . .

Being a big sister is the most wonderful thing in the world. However, my sister and I have serious role reversal. She had kids and married young. I am twenty-seven and still single. While, she never got to go out and party it up (like I still do, somewhat) I can’t relate to her experiences as a mother and wife. Though my sister and I are close, we have some major issues in our relationship. She has back issues with my father’s death and their relationship while having a spectacular relationship with my mother. Meanwhile, my father was my best friend but my mother and I have an estranged relationship. I wish we could just drop the drama and remember how much we love each other each and every day. She may live a thousand miles away from me but she’s the only sibling I am blessed to have.