lose 100 pounds

dear 100 lbs, i love you. You have been with me for at least, let’s see, 8 years, and your fellow lower amounts of extra pounds have been there for just about 30 years. 100 lbs, you have weighed me down, been like a heavy yolk tied around my neck, you have been like carrying an extra sad woman on my own shoulders, and you have zapped and stolen my energy and joy for so long. Now, I’m sure i loved many of the things i ate to create you, but really—i really didn’t. I was eating because i was out of control. addicted to sugar, and trying to make myself feel better for years of sadness and being overcome and overwhelmed by this process. 100 lbs, it’s time to go. time to take this added woman off of my shoulders. time to stop thinking about this burden day in, day out, every minute. 100 lbs, I can’t imagine all the room i will have in my life without you—physically and mentally. don’t know the day will come, but with just 14.4 lbs to go—seems like you’ll be history real soon. don’t feel bad. I will never find you again, but we lived so long together. thank you for whatever you taught me about life and myself…good bye, good bye, good bye…

i went to the gym. 30 minutes of walking uphill on treadmill… 20 minutes on stationary bike. I feel great!

i ate sugar on thanksgiving. some on cornbread, baklava, ricotta pie, and cookies. it was the only time in 3 months. i have an addiction, decidely to this substance. it makes me eat nonstop and have cravings for it. does anyone have any ideas of how i should think about this? its an addiction, so should i stay away from it all together, or do you beleive i need to find a way to enjoy it without guilt on holidays?

Yay… losing, losing, losing—thank you, Lord. I don’t mean to be controversial… but if you read my hundreds of postings you will see how I have battled with this all my life. Finally, two months ago, I made the decision to get bariatric surgery. If you are over 100 pounds overweight, morbidly obese with a BMI over 40, and insured, you can look into weight loss surgery to use as a tool to help you lose the weight. Your burden and struggle are lightened. Of course, you can do it on your own, but I am doing it “on my own” too with the help of this tool. Its not about your pride, its about your health. I could see that heart attack down the road once i reaced 290. today, I’m 235 and the scale is going down. Thank you LORD for this help, and this divine blessing.

well, my weight got as high at 290, folks. even though my last entry said that 275 would be my highest. in February of this year, i went down to 255, and then by May i was back up at 275? by the time the scale got to 280, my little spirit wasn’t up for this battle anymore. I’ve lost 25-40 pounds a year, only to gain them all back within that year, and then some. So, when the scale got to 290, after months and months of battling to lose 25, when I really have something like 140 pounds to lose, i decided to look into surgery. YES, I DID. I am near 40 years old, and have battled with this weight since i was eight. Losing and gaining back 90 lbs, 65 lbs, and 40 lbs every year for the past five years. So, i had surgery folks, and no, its not the easy way out, although i do feel freed from the “struggle” aspect of the weight loss battle. so, i had my surgery 7 weeks ago, and I’ve lost 43.4 lbs already. I just have about 96 more to go. I had the gastric sleeve. i know already that it will be life changing.

This is the highest weight I’ve ever been, and ever will be. This weight is leaving me TODAY. each day, me and all my body will be winning this battle. winning. winning. winning. staying ahead. I DON”t have a disorder. I am not a binge=eater anymore. Today, i eat salads, i eat fruit, i have no need for grease, fat, bread. TODAY, i am embarking, yes, AGAIN, on a new beginning.

i just want this off of me. OFF. get off of me. go away. pounds disappear. mouth, eat what’s good for you. legs, work that treadmill. mind, just think and visualize you reaching your goal soon with grace and hard work. see that you are accepting that this is your life. the work you are putting in, is something of what you will need to do to maintain and keep your weight under control. get off of me pounds. i don’t need you or want you anymore… time to go

251.5—down from 267, down from 280.

I’ve almost lost 30 pounds. Keep going, keep going, keep going.. this is forever

so, i started at 267, my weight today is 254, down in four weeks. sparkpeople has been a great help with keeping up with the amount of food and exercise in my life. now, i feel good. i feel focused. I’m trying to accept now that what how i’m eating now is how i will have to eat for the rest of my life. that is a good thing. we really don;t need as much food as we think we do. i’m listening to my body now, and i’m in control.

sparkpeople really is the bomb. detailed, great helpful graphics, wonderful personalized feedback and goals…......thanks to the 43thing person who hipped me to that site… i’ve lost 11 pounds so far this month.