know what love is

I wanna know what love is there is this guy ive like since i was a kid he went to my church his name is steven and we have pretty much the same life story we have the same religion and our dads died within a year of each other and we match so perfectly and recently ive been having these weird dreams where i married him and all i can think of is him i havent seen him in a while and i just wanna know what love is i mean im 18 years old and ive never been on a date and ive never been kissed and i know waht your all thinking does she live under a rock well my religion is like literally 2 steps away from being amish and it just kills me that other people my age are getting married and things and here i am liek an eternity behind like the other day i was in the mall parking lot and there was this 40ish couple making out and ive never even kissed someone let alone made out and i just really wanna know what love is i mean is it really too much to ask for to be loved and to be looked at as im someones world and they couldnt imagine a day without me…is it really too mcuh?