stop wanting what i cant have

The first step is convincing myself that I don’t want him anymore. It’s the “I can’t have him even if I want him” part that gets to me. I’m so freakin’ stubborn. Why can’t I just put the damn phone down? Why can’t I just take no for an answer? Why do I make so much progress in two weeks to have it all messed up in one night? Damn him.

I guess this ties in with one of my other goals.. but it’s such a big one, I think it needs two.