be thin

Woke up feeling sick from not eating
Tried to eat some ryvita and had a cup of tea
Threw up becuase my digestive system is fucked
Had an upset stomach
Blacked out twice
Everytime I stood up I went dizzy
Oh and then ate a small sandwich

114 pounds, its worth it

Hi, I know it’s been ages since I posted, hope everyone isn’t lacking motivation now summer is ending, we can still have a thin xmas! lol

Anyway for those who don’t know, there’s a website called FitDay, setting up an account is easy and free and it will let you record what your eating and what excersise you do (as little as having a bath can be recorded!). Then it can tell you if you’ve burnt your calories for the day, how many calories your eating etc.

You can easily keep track of what you’re putting in and what you’re burning out, with these little pie charts and calculators on the left hand side of the site! It’s a great motivator…

Before I eat anything now, I have to ask myself whether I would be happy to enter it into FitDay! And if I put off excersise I know that I won’t get to put that into my record!

Also you can enter your current weight, your goal weight and when you want to acheive it, then it tells you how much you need to lose a week to be successful.

Warning! Very addictive lol

I did well today, I only consumed 300 calories, and burnt at least 100 of them!

Keep with it people, just think how you’ll look!

I was doing ok, then my dad came home and he’s really tight about my eating, he kept cooking these huge dinners and we all had to sit down at the table and eat.

I’m not just blaming him, it’s my fault. I could have not eaten anything the rest of the day or after dinner, but does anyone else find that once they eat something, they keep going? I can’t do that really controlled portion for each meal thing, I either starve or eat too much. Thats gross right?

I’m going to start, again. Any support would be really good, I need someone motivated to team up with, if we’re in competition I do better at losing the weight.

Hope everyone else is ok hugs

Could someone please tell me how many calories in a TGI Fridays Chicken Ceaser Salad?
I didnt have choice today, I was taken out to dinner and made to eat, so i picked the salad. But it was covered in cheese and stuff.

Just how big a mistake was that? i didnt eat anything else today

my granny has alzheimer’s disease. i went to see her today. she didn’t know where she was or who we were, she was frail, and covered in veins and she had broke her leg falling down the stairs at the old people’s home that we have abandonned her in. she isn’t allowed out of the house, and people can just walk into her room. she didn’t know where the toilet was. she thought she had been arrested and was in prison, she was unable to dress herself. this is the woman that used to talk to me on the phone and make me laugh. today we were laughing, but she couldn;t even remember my name. she was so happy to see me, but she didnt know i was her grandaughter.

the point i am making is that we don’t live forever. people around us will change, and we will change as we grow old. most people cling to something, or someone to use as an anchor. i am using starving…

what are you holding onto? and how can you be sure it’s never going to let go? the thing in my head that tells me i’m fat and ugly and unloved will never let go. i know it might kill me, but i am willing to risk that.

what are you willing to risk? and for who? yourself?

2 slices of cheese on toast
1 piece of cake
1 icecream

Is that really bad, or do you think it’s ok? it doesnt feel ok…
My stomach really hurt like i’d eaten way too much, so i think that makes me offically filthy and distgusting

I’m sorry

i weighed myself this morning and i’d lost weight!

new weight : 115 pounds

thank god :)

I was made to eat dinner
And then I was offered my favourite icecream :(

Other than that I did pretty well at not eating, but still, it’s never good enough, nothing I do is good enough. I skipped breakfast, went to work, avoided lunch and only ate at 6pm.

But I wish I was thin, and even when the pain from my stomach being full goes away, I know that never will

1 bowl of salad, ate 1/2 of it
1 choc ice
8 pieces of Galaxy

I weighed myself and i’m 119 pounds, it’s disgusting.

Fat Pig :(

Another day wasted

Today and yesterday went ok I guess

Yesterday I only had half my dinner (egg fried rice and veg and prawns) and an ice lolly. :(

And today I just had a bowl of shreddies and a small cake :(

I really need some support people, I’m slipping fast.