be present in the moment

...this evening and just for a fleeting fleeting moment I was present and aware of my existance in the moment.

By questioning the nature of existance.

But also realised that while I feel rushed and out of control with my life right now, I am still more present than I ever was before my breakdown and subsequent events.

but lovely crunchy leaf moment :)

I had a lovely moment at the bus stop where I breathed in the scent of freshly mown grass (in London in November!!)

Right now, I don’t know about the present moment. I am hurting and confused and don’t want to think about the past the present or the future. I want nothingness.

...of my existance and the moment as I walked home from the bus this evening. It was turning dark and there was a light drizzle in the air which I felt on my face. I really felt it rather than rishing through it and worrying about getting home. It was amazing!

Today I had a moment where I felt truly connected and present in the moment. It wasn’t as part of a mindfulness practice, it came as part of my day, and it felt amazing!

I have had a few moments this week where I have been very conscious of being mindful. I need to remember it this week and next, as life is due to get a bit scary if I live too much in the future.

I know that practicing mindfulness will help with my ability to cope. Being in the moment is more healthy for me emotionally and mentally. I should try to remember this in difficult times.