stop pulling my hair

I’m starting out on the right track this month!

OK, it’s November, and I am going to try and make today the first day in a long time that I will be pull-free.

I always feel like the first day of the month is a good time to start fresh.

I have been doing just horribly at this lately. My eyebrows are entirely gone, I have a bald spot forming where my bangs are…it is awful. I just haven’t had any willpower at all – it is amazing how difficult it is to break this habit.

I am back on 43T after a hiatus, though, and I think just being on 43T will help me…for the past few months, I had lost all will to even try to better myself. Now, I want to try to refresh and restart my goals.

...since I have been on 43T. I am still pulling my hair, and I haven’t really had luck trying to quit. I’ve also had some major stresses in my life, and whenever I am stressed, I pull more. So REALLY, and I think this has been said before, what I NEED to do is learn how to deal with stress better.

My update: I’ve joined newgurl on the “20 days pull free” goal, but I have to say I am not doing near as well as she is! I did make it through four days without pulling, but the past couple days I have started pulling again. I WILL say, though, that I have pulled LESS than usual on the days I have pulled. So I feel somewhat good about my progress. Today is day one for me again, and I think it is going to be a good day! I have a date with my boyfriend tonight (we own a house together…so he is sort of more than a boyfriend, but I don’t know what to call him), and I am super-excited about it! So I can focus on being excited instead of being stressed and pull-y!

Today is almost over, and has been pull free so far. I read somewhere that keeping hand lotion around and using it constantly (so that your hands are always a little moist and sticky) can help. It is kind of gross, but it does help. It gives my hands something to do, and it makes it feel sort of odd to fiddle with my hair (you know, when you’re searching for the one to pull…)

It isn’t magic, but it is helping. Maybe it will help some of you, too?

I am so frustrated with myself. I just can’t seem to stop this no matter what I do. I feel like I should just give up. :(

!0/13/07 – NO

After all my babbling the other day, I only made it ‘til 8 pm on 10/13/07 and then I started pulling. Today is a new day!

The last pull-free day, as you can all see, was 9/22/07. Hmmm…not so good. I’m making a determined effort again today. I can go a day without pulling, but I literally have to make not pulling the TOP priority of the day in order to do so. Pretty tough when life has so many other things to think about….still, I can’t help but feel that it might get a TINY bit easier if I could keep at it. It is sort of “common knowledge” that it takes at least 21 days to form/break a habit. Though hair-pulling is more than just a “habit” for me, I’m going to make 21 days be my goal. 21 days where this is top priority. I’ll post each day. And I am GOING to succeed. I’ll just convince myself that I can pull my hair on the 22nd day (ha!) and that I’ll just have to wait. Maybe by then it will be less of a big deal to me.

was also pull free.