get a second degree black belt in taekwondo

Revisited my dojang for 10 year celebrations. So many faces I don’t know there now. I started in 2000, so my anniversary would be next year, not counting the time I’ve taken off. More people are 2nd Dans that started after me. :-/ I know it’s not a race, but it still feels like failure in a way.

I really need to honestly ask myself, and maybe some of my instructors, if I am really going to get much better at this. I don’t want to quit, but I need to be realistic. I also can’t dedicate the time that might be required – I’m doing so many other things as well.

I’ve started going to the gym at my workplace, to do much-needed upper body work. Taekwondo on its own doesn’t give much of a workout in that area, and ironically my weakness in that area is keeping me from progressing.

The workouts are good, but I don’t feel that I’m really improving. I need to seriously think if I should really continue, or try other exercises/workouts to build the muscles that I need to improve my taekwondo.

There’s a “maintenance” test on April 12th. I really should take it so I see where I’m at.

I went back to the dojang after way too long tonight. So many of my fellow first degrees are testing in a week. cries

I went back to my dojang for the first time in nearly a year last night. Thankfully people remembered me. I just did a small workout, I’m not ready for a full class just yet. Hopefully by May.

My school is having a belt test this Saturday, including three black belts. Hoping that it’ll inspire me to dive back in.

Slowly crawling back to classes. My head instructor said I should just show up, we’ll worry about the money later.

I’m a long way off…I need to feel that I’m really a first degree for one, plus get used to the leader/teacher role that I’m apparently supposed to be playing now. Have to do outside work, different exercises or such to help, I can tell.