It’s so hard to just be myself when all I want is to fit in and stop feeling so alone.
It’s hard to be myself at work when everyone seems so cool. It feels much like high school. I’ll say or do something then wonder why. The free coffee never helps.
I just can’t believe myself sometimes, I feel so lame.
I’ve been feeling very much alone lately, wishing I had someone to turn to and just talk. It always seems to end up the same, they have issues of their own or yells and tears of some sort.
I really miss the care free days. The days when work wasn’t my whole life, or at least 85 %. Damn it, I really don’t like it there.
On Monday I need to call Metro South and see about a Spring art class. After that I have to go down to Mosaic and help out until it’s time for bed.
Then on Tuesday, I have to cash my check after work and talk about my, very over due, credit card and school bills or whatever.
I know this wasn’t so much fun to read but if I can’t talk to someone I’ll just write.
That reminds me, I started to write a song in the shower today. I didn’t have anyway to write it down so I just said the words over and over.
A big thanks to those for read this.
Even if I don’t know you, I love you.
