feel attractive

To my intense surprise, I’m actually getting near to the point where this is happening. I’m not sure what changed, but something definitely has – when I look in the mirror I don’t think “Ew, God, how hideous”, and when I take a moment or two to actually dress well I feel as though I look pretty sharp. I think shaving my head daily is a big help on this, because it gives me a fairly anti-scruffy look, and gives me a starting point to work around. (Plus it generally looks kind of good on me, I think.) So I’m not ready to mark this goal done, but I’m definitely getting there.

I’m not very good at this yet. I have, however, gotten myself to stop being constantly convinced that I’m so ugly people can’t stand to look at me. Now I just have flashes of that. This is progress, believe me.