Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I have decided to truly stay clean and sober. How will I do this? What steps do I need to take? (I believe there are 12 of them.)
I am terrified. I have no clue how to stay clean. I am able to stop drinking because I haven’t really been drinking that much. What is stopping me? I seem to be hopelessly addicted to smoking hash. I know, I know … every other addict in the world is laughing right now remembering a scene from Half Baked where the guy who can’t stop smoking weed gets booed off the stage. I am that guy, I suppose. I have never gone to desperate measures to get this drug (unless you count all of the time I have taken away from my family and myself to pursue the high). I am terrified of my own decisions. I know that I can make it. That I will have to accept help. That I am an addict and that nothing I “do” can change that fact. I am ready to start a new way of life. I am ready.
I have decided to stop smoking hash. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I must get free. I will take this day second by second and moment by moment if need be. I must get free.
