create everyday

its just possible i’ll manage this goal this week! : o

im starting a summer class tomorrow, its just the one week but i will be working on stuff everyday :D
and because its a portfolio class i think it’s going to be quite varied…. eeeeek!! im all excited :)

and a little scared?

but mostley excited :D

but im running out of bits of myself to draw!
i prefare to draw people than things so,
well,
needs must… :P
at least im a very patient model and i always do exactley what im told but its getting a bit boring now

must find another class!

yesterday i bumped into the tutor who took my last set of classes and he introduced me as his star pupil :D
::beam::
honestly he couldn’t have made me any happier if he’d given me a massive hug!
it’ll keep me going for weeks :D

so, today im taking the advice he game me and getting stuck in!
::beam::

damn it!
i myself so mad sometimes?
its not like im lazy or i dont care, ive just become a master procrastinator
everyday i manage to convince myself that checking my email or going for a walk or watching the mid-afternoon episode of Poirot is more important than actually doing what i want to do with my life?
::sigh::

im turning the computer off right now.
right now!
_{any minute now}^{yip… off it goes}

ive just sent off my application for an evening class at glasgow school of art
im really looking forward to it :D ive taken a summer class there before and its a lovely place to be
just hope im accepted, that class wasnt my first choice but i left my application to late and alot of the places are taken…. _{lazy, lazy, lazy} tut tut!
hopefully this will be the kick up the bum i need to help me CREATE EVERYDAY i like to imagine that in a big booming voice… but its never helped me _sigh

only thing im worried about is the odd boy i went out with was a life model for the art school, so im keeping my fingers (and everything else!) crossed hes found a better job since then :)

ok
mabey its not over yet, its only 3.15?
but its another day gone without making any atempt to work on my portfolio
so far this week i have cleaned the entire flat
washed down all surfaces and floors and gutted all my drawers and wardobe
I swear it couldnt be cleaner if id was trying to hide a crime, which im not! honestley!
i sit in my room and think “tsk! i cant work in this enviroment, i’ll just fix this… throw out that…. dust this… check my email AGAIN!!”
next week i’ll do better
i promise!!