perfect dream log

I dreamed I was traveling… I called Mike and he called my phone right at the same time.
The dream mainly had parts that had to do with trains and travel.
I cannot recall much else to write down.

I woke up hearing in my head that the gf of someone I really care about is mocking things he really cares about!!
I listen to him and am his friend, I admire him.
I hurt to hear that someone talks to him that way, but he is strong and he has me.

March 16, I dreamed Mike said in a group of people , standing near me, “You know we’re in love with each other”
this was in Mt, and at a mutual friends house.
There was a lady that had palms and said they were not allowed, so she had to hide them in the bushes.

dreamed I sewed a dress for a girl I know named Niki.
it had lace in the lining and I showed it to her mom and I was not quite done with it.
She wanted to pay me, so I asked for 10 dollars.
Maybe I am gonna sew dresses, why not. I used to sew quite often.
the girls would like it.
well, the rest of the dream we were in the back of church and there was a place that we sat more like a bedroom.
cant remember the rest of it.

in my dream J surprised me by entering the church doors when the kids and I were in the vestibule.
Honestly, I am surprised , but it was such a short dream … literally all he did was go in the doors to where everyone sits down. that part is called what: the sanctuary right?
then I woke up.
Could be a good thing… this has been such a hard time with him not communicating after wonderful reunions all summer, good thing I held out on things as long as I could but really… I have spent so much energy and money coping with this … I got used to it a bit more just like I did get used to the driving, but how do I get used to is so it does not make me feel bad?
I have to just stop myself from thinking about him. Obviously it does nothing but cause me worry. I mean, he is like a missing person to me between every time I see him.
What If I did that to him? He would not like it,
He would “think I didn’t care” and get with someone else?
I dont know what to do. Maybe he is with others, I have to assume the best and the worst since I know nothing… I can trust him though so he is just busy and he loves me…
still, this day and age, why make someone go through this?
He cannot help it I am sure, I had bad times when I was dealing with tough things and did not always talk or answer people. I have to be more able to understand. My married daughter said unless someone is married , they should not expect to hear back from the guy . Good point.

dreamed my dad wrote me a post card and told me to write him at this certain address with LUNA in the title.
He told me he wanted to hear about the nice gifts that the girls got, new books, and how my life was basically. He was always so encouraging and detailed in his letters.
We were looking at someone water these dandelions or sunflowers and it was fun how it was in the dream.
My dad seems to really want me to write him, maybe he can actually write me back. He misses my letters and wishes he could get the girls some books and gifts, like they used to get them.
I miss him hugely too.
seems that he wants me to remember how it felt when he was still alive and being supportive of me.
to get them gifts, to tell him the great things we were doing,
seems that since he died I have no one that cares about the neat things they are doing,
seems that J came back and it was a positive but how would I relate that to my dad? Maybe that will help me with Jonathan in a way.
Jonathan needs to be back cuz he is a good friend but his drinking was too scary and he got kind of a lot of expectations on me…
then none of the fun!
it was weird.
so anyway, i ought to start writing my dad like I used to.

dreamed during a nap today that my priest walked near me and we were near a fountain. He looked at it and smiled and said ” its frozen” . the water was frozen in the spouts on the fountain. Wonder what it means?
I then ( in real) went to confession finally after all summer not going. I think it really did help me a lot…

J was saying he was staying somewhere so someone would not wake up alone.
I hate that.
oh well, could be all my dreams are just possible futures and not all will happen, not all have happened!

sunday aug 22
j was talking to me in a dream with his face only, saying ” You need to understand: I am with both of them now, In one week I will only be with the b. when its born, I will have it. I love you!”
so, a week from yesterday, something’s gonna change? I take it..?

This guy did have a baby, a couple of mos ago. He tried to get back with me but I refuse. He is addicted to drugs and a liar

THE SONG “GROOVY KIND OF LOVE” WOKE ME UP TODAY IN MY HEAD.