not worry about money

fingers crossed, i won’t get wholloped by some unexpected expense. in the meantime, though, even though we’re in the hole and pretty much have no cash, i’m not stressing about it. i’m sure this has to do in large part with how many bills are going to be paid off in the next couple of months and the insurance “windfall” we got after last month’s hailstorm. i’ve got plans to start socking more money away once we get some loans paid off, and i’m hopeful that we’ll stay on track to get the credit cards paid off by next summer, too. i still spend a little too much time looking at the budget and what-not, but i’m not feeling the usual anxiety about it. i think that’s an excellent indicator that this goal has been completed. yay!

i don’t know if it’s because i’m coming off the high of being on vacation, or if i’m in denial, or if i’m just hopeful becuase i know we’re getting a lot of things paid off in the next couple of months or what, but whatever the reason, i’m not freaking out about money these days. maybe i’m finally getting optimistic about something. better knock on wood, just to be on the safe side… :)

to “not worry about money” because money is really all i worry about. there are things that bother me, upset me, get me thinking, etc., but when it comes to worrying, money pretty much has the market cornered.

i really gotta give ‘em credit. they have followed-up with us, not left us hanging, and i had the damage assessed and a check in my hand within 30 minutes this morning. nice. at this point, it’s pretty much up to the bank whether we repair the car or simply cash the check, since they’re the lienholder. so, i’m going to shoot the credit union an e-mail and see when i can come in and talk to them. who knows, they might have a flat-out policy that all damage is repaired, but it’s at least worth a shot to see if they’ll apply the money towards my principal. fingers crossed…

we just had a hail storm. unfortunately, neither car was in the garage and both sustained damage. on the up side, hubby had the presence of mind to file a claim with our insurance company right away and they called us within 30 minutes. not too shabby. i’m gonna have to keep my fingers crossed that they’ll cover it. i didn’t see anything in the policy about it, so i can only hope at this point.

i should probably just give up on this. i’m a worrier. unless i get my shit together, fix my money problems, figure out what the hell i want to do with the rest of my life, get happy, and do all the other things that keep me up at night, i’m going to worry.

ugh.

we’ll see how it goes…

but i happen to have a lot on my mind right now, mostly money stuff, and i kinda feel like i have a right to worry. i’m actively trying not to, but i’m going to put this one on temporary hold until i get my financial life in order first.