be amazing

how I continue to attempt to be amazing, amongst your hate for me
Perhaps, because I forgive you, for not noticing it and all it’s beauty, perhaps, maybe, because I am an enabler
But the more amzing I become in my indepence, the more you remain hating me… if that is the cost that I must pay to accept, being amazing, so be it….......for I was amazing, before your distain for me

I listened intently to NPR, while a woman discussed how uncomfortable she felt when she saw her mother’s “friend request” pop up on her “Face Book”.
I was rather flattered by that story. Smug, in a way….
It felt rather good to know, that my kids and their friends extended the invitation to me first on Face Book….
But I also wanted to tell that reporter…”It’s a two way street sister.” A friend request from your child, means you can now see all those college party photos they post there, that you know rationally is happening, but as a mom, you prefer not to actually “see”. Or that cute little post, some half dressed girl left on your sons wall, which leaves you praying that she is NOT the next girl he brings home!
“So you see, dear madame reporter, maybe your mom really didn’t want to add you at all. I know this is hard to believe, but your mom really does not want to know what your doing at every given moment via your Face Book page. Perhaps she felt obligated, once she saw that she had more Face Book friends than you”

the beer distributor this morning…it was so crowded. Well, it is Father’s Day I thought…everyone buying that one gift Dad’s never get tired of getting..and I couldn’t help but notice, how many smiles, I received from some of the gentleman who passed by me in the aisle..I must say, I thinking to myself,
“See Leanne, you don’t look as bad as you thought!”
It was only when I got home, and reached in my back pocket to retrieve my money did I realize, I had a huge gaping hole in the back of my pants, exposing way more than would have even been acceptable for the hottest super model! Oh Ya, that’s me, simply amazing, one fashion disaster at a time!

outside..you might want to take a look at”, as I grabbed my coffee to go at the local Sheetz Gas Station…..
“A fire..really….Joe, this lady seez there’s a fire outside..you did mean outside, outside, right? Like outside here, our building?”
“Ahh, yes…” I replied while thinking, it has now went from a small something smoldering, to the gas pumps, which might eventually turn into more action then a Vin Diesel movie…
“Oh, ok thanks we’ll check it out”....
In my mind, I’m thinking, rather proudly…that’s me,fabulously saving lives, one Sheetz employee at a time!

Arriving early to the office, has really started to take it’s toll….I rushed to get ready, Wednesday morning, but thankfully, I had put my clothes in the dryer the night before…I ran downstairs, and threw on the pretty blouse with the sheer sleeves and a skirt…grabbed my coffee, my keys and out the door I went..quite pleased with myself…that I managed to so overtime for the third day in a row…after I was at work for over an hour, something just wasn’t feeling right…low and behold..I had one of my daughters socks, stuck, in the sheer sleeve of my shirt..thanks co-workers! You amazing bunch of people, that would let me walk around like that for an hour! You are the reason, I stand in front of the full length mirror in the Ladies room. I know, you all think I am being vain….but actually, I am just making sure, I haven’t tucked my skirt inside my pantyhose..Because if I am relying on you people to tell me..it’ll never happen!

as the year comes to a close, I want to wish you all, a very Happy New Year….......to those of you that touched my life, with your inspiring entries…..to those of you, whose accomplishments go unmatched…....to those of you, like me, have tried, failed and keep trying…......
May we all, have a remarkable year…..in which we continue to acheive, fail, try,fail and try again…...
Some of you may think, you write, just entries, of your everyday ordinary life..
You would be amazed, at how much even the countless entries of “Daily reflect on 5 things I am Gratiful for”...is inspiring….

vastly come to an end…and since I may not get the chance between now and Christmas Day, to have the opportunity to write…..I will humbly say it tonight
To everyone on “43 Things”..you, are amazing….you have shared so much of your world with me, and for that I am forever gratiful….no matter how big, how small, your accomplishments..there were accomplishments…and there were set backs, I had quite a few of my own this year…so, it was nice to know I wasn’t alone….
Warmest wishes to each of you during this holiday season….
Thanks to all of you, I continue to grow and to learn and to appreciate …

Like Bella..without all the vampire, werewolf drama

These goals, that I write here..are about ME..yes, ME..a better ME, a stronger ME…..
So if you, are factoring in your ego to any of these goals….
I suggest that you don’t do so..these posts….
These goals….have nothing to do with you
To be honest I hate that I shared this place with you..
that now you use it to somehow, cheer me or email whenever the whim hits YOU….
I write, about one person, he no longer reads what I write here….
He came here once, to know me better..he said it was so personal, some of it so heartbreaking…..
that if I needed to share what I wrote here, he trusted me enough to just tell him
He did not read, just what he thought was about him..he read…
No he heard what was important to me..not what was important to him…..

confirmation email, for the new dinner group, I joined. I am rather releived that it is next Monday. I am slightly apprehensive, as well, since I will be the “new” one to the group. However, I am taking my mom along….she talks with everyone! The menu sounds great and the prices are very reasonable! So hopefully, it works out as well, as I hope it will!
Still don’t know if I am Amazing enough yet to accept the invitation to the “Study of Buddha”, this group is really, really small, under ten people..So I think I’ll see how this pans out first…