Keep A Dailey Journal

I would write…..we, will not see each other, anytime soon
so, I stopped writing…here, until tonight and in that journal
there is no phone communication anymore
there is no physical contact, just memories there of
I hear, that you will see me, once business picks up
Once, someone else can pay, for us to be together
I needed to hear you say that, to explain that to me….
for now I realize, its really not much different from what I have

I did, however,feel much better, when I was writing..something about seeing things actually on paper, that makes you remember, your goals..and whats important

no matter how busy I am
I need to document this Halloween for her, the way I see her through my eyes…
That I wanted to deperately put her hair up in pink bows, regardless, of the Halloween outfit she picked out with her dad as I was working,,,
“Your a Star Wars person”...I told her
“Noooooooooooooooooooooo, I am a clone trooper!”
“Wow, I bet your the prettiest Clone Tropper ever!” (like I even know what that was)
All, I know, is she is still in custome, using that wonerful thing, called an imagination….her friends, the pretty witch and the preety pirate, have long ago changed into their jamies..she however remains…in a gallaxy far far away…

“Record at Least 5 Ways”
you were a complete and total dumbass today
Maybe I should raise that to ten

helped my mood…decreased my anger…lets me feel like I have some control in my life…
At the top of each page, I write my favorite inspiration
which lately has been “You cannot take a strong stance, from a dependent position”
It’s serves as a reminder to myself to grow stronger and stand on my own two feet..
I also list what, I have found to be very popular here
5 Things Everyday That I Am Gratiful For