Kiss in the rain

in my mind…..how badly did I want this? I did not realize, that it came with a price…..a choice….
Does one stand forever, in the pouring rain, holding on to the hand, the one that accepts you..exactly how you look at that moment,,,drenched, not pretty, at all, as if you ever were…..but maybe, just maybe, regardless of his choices, the ones that left you alone on countless nights…..HE would still take you in his arms, drenched, wet and unpretty, and say..you look beautiful in the rain…..
But than there is him, beautiful in my eyes…perfect, perhaps simply, because, he never sees the real me…He never sees the rain…He sees the sun….it beating down in anticaption of seeing him…...

to go out of their way, and make me a CD of music, they thought I would like! No this is not a romantic relationship, it was just someone that knew I was stressed out lately….working a lot of overtime from home….how comforting will it be now, it slip in that lovely CD, while working? This dear friend, found a way to share themselves with me..a sweet reminder of their love, even when times are hard and I cant spend the time I would like to with them…It was like, standing in the middle of the hugest rainstorm, not knowing where to turn, there is your best friend in all the world…with a towel

and the rain was pounding down, as I walked out of work…my hair was wet and stuck to one side of my face, my hands were full, and I was freezing..and cursing…..
From out of no where, there like a ray of sunshine, was Adam from the mail room, walking beside me, and sheltering me from the elements with his umbrella…His car was parked in the opposite direction, he did not have, to go out of his way, to make my rather dreary day, seem much better because of his random act of kindness..but I am so glad he did!
I think, I will always consider that random act of kindness, much much better than a kiss in the rain, could ever be!

that came out of my mouth today ,worth repeating…....that as you reached out to me today, I could not help but think at the end of the day, why did you say that? How supportive were was I actually?
But, if the truth be told…and it was warm here…
I would grab your hand in mine, with the starry night sky above us, and the hot temperatures surrounding us, and I would kiss you, and tell you, everything will be ok..as I feel the cool rain hit my bare shoulders..and I would kiss you..in that summer rain…...but I would never check this off as done, for with you, I cannot not help to have it again

election that keeps me occupied, busy, distracted
but sometimes,,,as the sun sets, earlier each night, as I see summer fading….
I wonder, before summer is gone,
what it might feel like
to stand, in the middle of the street, sandles in hand, standing on my tip toes, kissing you one last time
soak and wet

“I wasn’t kissing her, I was whispering in her mouth”

Chico Marx comment when his wife caught him kissing a chorus girl

“Few men know how to kiss well, fortunately, I’ve always had time to teach them!”

I wanted this so badly..to kiss in the rain, again..passionately…soak and wet, eyes staring at each other seeing nothing but how beautiful each is to the other…..
But I forgot, about storms…..that love..true love is measured by storms….not foolish kisses in the rain…but storms, in which one does not stand in front of the other…...but beside each other…for one, at that moment is vunerable and one is strong, strong, for the other person that they had kissed..once in the rain,,,,
Had I had awaken, from that surgery, from the storm that left me with only one breast….you and only you would have remembered,,,what I looked like when I kissed you in the rain so many years ago
I am sorry..that this goal for the longest time did not include you..when you..had been there all along

“That she had taken the initiative learn my name should have struck me then, but it did not. Instead, as she stood in the rain with her mascara running into her cheeks, all I could think was that I never seen anyone more beautiful.”

It is raining here…should be snowing and I would give anything..to be kissing in the rain with the one I love instead of the one I settled for