move forward

I have realized that I focus too much on the past. I practically live there, in the past where I have no control and I can’t change anything, where everything seems so bleak and meaningless. I have to work really hard just to live in the present, and even harder to imagine the future. I guess I stay in the past for two reasons. One is because its easier to live in the past and focus on regrets and failure than actually doing anything, and two because I think that if I analyze everything to the enth degree then I will be able to find answers. I have no many questions, why why why why why did all this happen, etc… but I’m not going to find answers. No one ever knows why things happen. I just have to accept my past and move on. I have to forgive others, forgive myself, and focus on now, and tomorrow.