be happy again

is the best policy. It was really hard for me to be honest with myself. I was too stubborn to admit any of my problems. I had to take off all the masks I refused to admit I even wore… and there I was. I’m still me underneath, a happy person waiting to be freed. Rather than focusing on my depression, I started to focus on what’s REALLY going on. After that, it was like a weight was lifted off my shoulders! Of course, it’s a daily struggle, but simply being honest is an accomplishment for me every day.

I used to be proud that I’d never been depressed… But now I’m going through a really rough patch of unhappiness and really intense laziness and not being productive at all. I’m getting outside assistance and possibly medication, which scares me more than many things would. I’m trying to accept it and tell myself that it’s ok, and I’m being positive and hopeful that things will be back to normal one day…