be less jealous

Im auctually getting a lot better with this….Im totally suprised. He went to the beach yesterday with his 2 guy friends, and I didnt think twice. I just wanted him to have fun, and the thought of him doing something he wasnt suppose to do never crossed my mind. I give myself a pat on the back. YAY for me! :)

I have THE perfect guy for me, hes everything a girl could possibly want in a guy. You’d be amazed if you ever met him. I however am insecure and jealous. I dont want to stop the jealousy….just cut it down. No matter what the girl looks like that talks to him, I get this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach and i want to throw up….is that normal? I also have this horrible habit of asking him if hes fucked this one or that one…..who wants to know that? Certainly not me….yet i ask anyway. I dont want to drive him away, he constantly tells me how much he loves me and how great i am…..its just so hard to believe….i mean, whats so great about me? sigh why are the bad things so much easier to believe?