and more each day. Sometimes, even the person I see in the mirror looks familiar. No, I hadn’t totally lost it, but I think whatever burden I was carrying before really changed my face, and I had gained so much weight. I’m losing the weight quickly now—but it’s really more than that.
this isn’t all about relationship problems either. Most graduates of the naturopathic medical program would say that it took them at least 2 years before they started feeling like themselves again. Well, that would be about the right timing.
Jan 26, 2007, 09:29PM PST | 13 cheers | 10 comments
to anyone with kids, how one tends to sublimate one’s own desires and needs. And it’s ok when they’re so little, and they’re nursing, and their happiness and health is all I cared about. It may have even been easier if I hadn’t been in grad school at the time—having my time/attention divided, and grad school/naturopathic medical school putting me through alll sorts of meaningless tests (and some meaningful ones), and always feeling like I had to please others to get by…
But now that’s over, and my kids are getting bigger, and now my health is getting better. Losing my health, my strength and vitality. It used to be such a large part of how I defined myself, and it was gone, completely gone for years… That may have been the hardest. And now that I can move again, learning not to be too attached to it, my health, my physical being… but still being able to enjoy it.
Slowly, I’m feeling like myself, but so much of it, right now, is dependent on my jogging/walking. I’ve really started to feel like myself. But it’s also about being more emotionally open and vulnerbale to new friends, after being so guarded in grad/medical school…
I think finding some outlet to creativity will be next, and starting my business, but I don’t want to be defined by that either…
my, that was quite a rant…
Aug 20, 2006, 12:36PM PDT | 11 cheers | 4 comments
