Accept loneliness

I am almost 25 and have never had a good relationship… I am too nice they say, and so they can’t tolerate me. My family members say that its just because the men in my life don’t feel like they can live up to my expectations… I don’t have any. I want the people in my life to be who they are and I will love them anyways, but nobody takes the time to get to that point with me. I try not to annoy but somehow that in itself is annoying. I try to be fair and kind and just, and that just blows up in my face. Its almost impossible to make me mad enough not to forgive almost immediately… I try to be with other people as I would like to be treated… But year after year I meet guy after guy who don’t want me. They say I’m pretty and sweet and stuff, but I’m just not for them… So I figure I’m going to die alone. I’m never going to have the husband and children I dream of… I am so tired of being all alone… I wish I was dead, though I believe far too much in GOD to ever bring that about. Excuse me, the tears have clouded my vision.