be a better wife

I think, anyways. We’ve been going to counseling and working really hard on the way we’ve been treating one another. I really hope and pray we keep up the good progress that we’ve made so far. I’m so proud of how far we’ve come in such a short time. One thing Matt needs to work on is leaving his work at work. When I go home I’m just home. If he’s had a bad day he lets it eat at him even after he’s home and supposed to be relaxing.

I’m told I’m no fucking fun and he doesn’t like being married to “a forty year old woman”. I’ve never acted my age and I do like to joke and have fun but I don’t like acting stupid, which is sometimes his way of having “fun”. I don’t know, I think sometimes I try to be too serious because he’s always playing around. Who fucking knows. Maybe I’m just no good at this marriage thing. I really try though. I want to be a good wife. I just don’t know how to make it better without acting like an ass to make him think I’m having fun.

was Matt’s birthday. I got him the Stars Wars Monopoly game, since he’s a Star Wars freak. I also got him another season of South Park and took him to the AT&T store and got him the new iPhone. :-) I think it was a pretty good birthday, we went out to dinner with a friend of his and then all came back to the house and played his new game until 1 something this morning. Fun times were had by all. LOL

really hard in therapy to work out some of my issues that tend to cause problems for me and make me bitchy. I want to be sweet to my baby all the time. I want to be the best wife ever, he’s my world and I want him to be happy. I do all the wifely chores, laundry, dishes, pay the bills, tend the dog. All that and I get tired and cranky and I don’t want to take it out on him.

an amazing suprise as a homecoming gift. I know he’s gonna love it, I can’t wait to show it to him. I’d post it but then he’d know so….

not a very good one at this point, but I’m trying really hard to get better at it. I wanna make Matt happy. I want him to be proud that I’m his wife. I love him so much.