I was on a really great diet, no drinking and i noticed my skin cleared up significantly. I feel like the back acne and birth control pill thing have run its course so i feel my back getting better. slowly but surely and actually have recieved a lot of compliments on my skin. the picking is tapering off actually! a word on proactive… its pretty nice and it DID help, but only a little bit. My diet helped most though. I did a cleansing fast and then no sugar, gluten or dairy for a month, which i am trying to maintain.
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if anyone reads this they probably think i’m nuts. but man we have so much control over these kinds of things, we have to aknowledge them and deal. so many things i notice or have been been pointed out in my personality that i would rather not have. but we all have these things. its importent to be aware and improve where you can. hence why i love this site. we are all so humanly flawed. my boss is someone i respect and look up to. she’s a my role model, someone i’d like to be like someday. i recently became friends with her daughter and its weird to hear her complain about her mother, the way i complain about mine. her flaws and inconcistencies. we all are so flawed. is that comforting? or are we all screwed?
i’m going through a break up and i’ve noticed as a result i’ve been tearing at my face more often, which is frustrating because now i’m all marred up. my back is break out because i got off the pill a couple months ago so now i pick my bad which is also full of scars. its fucked up. i wish i had a way to deal with the stress. i can’t exercise all day. i went to some websites about this, i guess its a disorder. i’ve been doing this for so long, i thought everyone does. people at work look at me funny because i leave my office with a fucked up face. then ask if i’m okay. its really embarrassing. some times i think i have it under control but lately i dont. arg. i miss having nice skin. the last couple years have been particularly bad.
So my skin has improved like 50% i dug out a couple black heads like psycho and have two marks on my cheek that will probably take a while to heal. I just got off the pill 2months ago so i think it will take a few more months before my skin levals out as far as break outs go. after i stopped the pill my back has started breaking out like it did in highschool which is horrible, i have so many scars from that. its easier not to pick at those, but i have ripped open a couple big ones. zits are so gross i wish my skin would just be clear. aren’t i too old for this? i’m 23? so think when i’m done using the face stuff i ahve now, i’m gonna try proactive and see if it works. i won’t pic my face if it wasn’t full of nasty crap
i got off the pill and my skin is clearing up a lot, and i’ve been exercising too, so i think thats a big help. no picking lately, I wonder how long i can go?
i’ve been telling myself to stop, so still i’m doing it less and less but it might take a while. some times i tell myself its a harmless little squeeze and i end up totally mutilating my face, I’m really broken out now and stressed out so it’s super hard not to.
i definately haven’t gone a day with out a quick squeeze or pick, but i for sure have cut down dramatically. I catch myself now and make myself stop. my skin looks a lot better, I also switched to this line of face wash called dermatologica, its helped a ton with zits, it was a little more then i’d like to spend on face stuff.
picking my face is so satisfying, isn’t that sick? I convinced myself it will prevent future pimples or something, i think a friend in highschool who had great skin told me that to mess with me