move

ive been living in this crappy apartment for 4 years now. i keep wanting to move but its so hard to come up with the deposit and the first month of rent while still paying for the rent here. I swear i pay too much for this place. the cops are at my neighbors place all the time, there are shootings and drugs and drunk people in the halls. my car has been broken into and people actually move furniture on my patio in order to peek in at me. i hate it! I never thought i would live in a place like this.
My best friends dad is trying to fix up a cabin so that he can live in it, and he said that when he is done he wants me and her to take over the house he lives in now. It would be so wonderful! its in a good neighborhood, its a ACTUAL HOUSE! it has a huge heated garage, three bedrooms, a newly redone kitchen and bath, and a nice back yard where i could finally get my dog back and a front yard where he said i could do all the gardens i want.
I just cant wait. I would finally feel like i have a “home”. never had that before in my life. growing up i never stayed in one house or apartment for more than 1 year.
i just cant wait to have a home…. an actual home where i could feel safe and comfortable. i hope it happens soon.