Worry less.

i’m driving crazy… should have had the results of my exams yesterday and nothing, i’ve been checking the website every 3 minutes for 2 day and there’s just written “not published”, i’m gonna go crazy, for real.

my university sucks.

I’m quite freaked out just now. Worried. i’ve had some health problems lately and well, everything went so fast, i mean, only 1 week after the problems started i had the surgery, and now it’ll take at least 2 months before i get better, and well it scares me how quickly one’s life can totally change.

We had bought tickets for a concert like a month ago, the concert is next sunday, and i won’t be able to go. I would never have thought that something like that would happen to me, just 2 days after the beginning of my holidays. THe first 2 weeks of my holiday were quite as if i played a patient on ER or Grey’s Anatomy…. Living it is way less funny than watching it on tv.

How could i not worry when i know that anything could happen at anytime and could change all the projects i had made.

Feel puzzled.

I cannot not worry with the results of my exams coming in 3 weeks. I’m stressed out. I hope i didn’t fail because i did the best i could. And i don’t wanna have to learn all over again. So yeah, i’m worried, and i’ll try to worry less in 3 weeks.

right now feel so depressed.
many reasons :
-> i’ll have the results of my exams on thursday, only 33 students out of 300 succeeded and i know i’m not a part of them.
-> have so much uninteresting work to do for wednesday and i don’t know how the helle i’m gonna do it.
-> feel so tired, tired of spending 95% of my time studying not by choice but because if i don’t i’ll also fail the next exams in May.

depressed, depressed, depressed…

i just can’t start this goal this week cuz i’ll have the (bad) results of my exams on thursday, which means i’m gonna be extremely worried until thursday, and very depressed after thursday… Will maybe start around next month… oh by the way, i AM stressed and SO worried !