Share some of my random thoughts that don't fit under any particular goal

I’m at a party.

RIGHT NOW.

But i’m not having ANY fun,

really.
I’m a bit drunk but thats it.

i just hate my life. so much.

I don’t know what to do…

Wow.

Today is just such a nice day!

It was unexpected because it’s been pretty awful for the past week or two.

It was lovely, because I’ve been cooped up inside for what feels like forever.

You know when you have one of those days, when everything just seems to be going well?

Today was one of those days.

I had some lovely conversations with some lovely people, as well as getting some work done.

Everything seems to be looking up :)

For some reason, I’m feeling… I don’t know.

Depressed isn’t the right word, but its the first one that comes to mind.

I just don’t really know what I’m doing anymore.

I don’t really hang out with any of my out of school friends any more – probably because i grew apart from my other friends that were friends with the same bunch, and so never have anyone to go with.

Also, I don’t really fit properly with a lot of the people in school. We’re friends, but I don’t really feel like they know me that well – apart from emma and josie.

maybe its because I don’t really know who I am any more.

i think i’m experiencing some kind of identity crisis. At the moment I don’t really know who I am and so I’m finding everything a bit awkward at the moment.

I feel like everything’s changing around me, and I’m just not keeping up, growing or changing fast enough.

Everything’s moving so fast.

I don’t really have much of a social life, and i’ve got a nonexistent love life.

My academic life isn’t up to scratch either.

I just don’t know what I’m supposed to do any more.

http://kiddiestuffatthemovies.blogspot.com/2008/01/beauty-and-beast.html

I need to make a goal in a couple of months saying something like:

throw out any clothes that i haven’t worn since 2007.

has just been opened in my local high street.

Part of me’s pretty happy – it means I don’t have to trek to loughton or up london to get some :)

but it also makes me sad.

one of the things i liked about my local high street was that it had no chain shops, save woolworths.

it meant that there were loads of small cafes and random shops.

obviously, these are still all there.

but I can’t help thinking that they’ll be replaced by a WHSmiths or something in the near future.

....

it’s sad.

I was just listening to one of my favourite songs – White Houses by Vanessa Carlton :)

I haven’t heard it in ages.

Anyway, there’s a line in it that goes ‘it’s all too sweet to last.’
It’s completely random, but it got me thinking.

Last year, I had the most amazing time.
Met all these really cool people.
I’ve been a bit down recently, kind of wishing that I could go back to then and relive it all.

But this line made me realise that, well, it kind of was too sweet to last, in a way.

Which kind of makes me feel better about the whole thing.
I don’t know.

It’s nice to have the memories.

I think I need to kind of stop living in the past, you know?

:)