find true love

I am ready to give. The fight at an end. I cant go on. I cant continue thinking all is just right when I sit here and want cry myself to sleep at night. You just left with knowing whats wrong and still you act like nothing is wrong. I want to breath but it even hurts there, the heart ach I felt is everywhere. All I have ever wanted is true to the end but Im afarid all I get is screwed in the end.

Nabey but who know mabey time has come God may grant it so but in my mind I still wonder you see when is his time to run away his time to flee?

I try I tell him daily I love him and I mean it I want it so badly again the daily quest. In my heart I believe its there In my mind I wonder if I let it pass me by, I wonder why should I try. I seem stronger just me but eternal companionship is grilled into me. As a child all I could see was my knight in shining armor rescuing me as an adult all I see is how many have run away from me.

What is love? I search for it daily. I have searched constantly for two years (or they tell me two) I searched for it in a 10 year loveless marriage for almost the whole 10 years I have searched and searched and now I want to give up. What is love? I dont know I believe in it anymore. I dont think its really abtainable. After 29 years of searching you would think I would have found it.

My feelings are mixed up tommorow I am suppossed to have dinner with my best friend her husband and there son its a birthday dinner for my best friends husband. The problem is that I am falling in love with her son. I wont tell her I cant tell him. I just freeze up everytime, hes so sweet and caring. When he holds me he makes all the wrong in my life go away. I want to say no I cant torture my self anymore but I treasure every minute I spend with him. I really have to stop this self torture.

I thought I found him I put my whole heart into this one and all was working good then one day he was gone, a month late and a best friends guilt trip letter to him brought him back but why after a month should I just let him walk back in? I just dont understand why I scare them away.

I thought I found him, true love. But I dont know everyone else seems to believe that its not him. I want love

I was helping a friend as best I could and took her to the food bank and may have walked into true love, but I let him leave. He managed six words in that meeting. “Nice to almost meet you today.” I managed none. That God brings you to someone by chance once no big deal
Two days later by very strange circumstances we met again, but again I let him leave. That God gives you a second time by chance please take a closer look.
Thats ok I knew where he worked now.
:) Took me another month to say more than two words to him
Really at that point I just left my number, very unlike me.
Its has only been a matter of months, but I know you’ve felt it too when you meet someone really special and you can just feel that no matter what this person WILL make a major impact on you. I could feel it. I can feel it. Its strange from the moment I looked at him I could feel it Is this true love?