be happy

Lately i feel so confused…i seek for people to believe in me… believe in my skills and what can i do with my dance with my job…i dont know why that is happening…iwant to be ok… to fullfill my target..

Tommorow is my birthday!!!Oh my God i am growing up…
25/8!!!i become 23!!!i feel little bit sad….most of my friends are away…and i dont have many friends any more..people are unforeseen..everything changed after following the path of dance.so i’ve became a little bit closed as a person..Well …happy birthday to me..!

today i spent lot of time with my mom!she’s crying all the time she’s scared..so am i…but i pray every day so strong to be ok..I love my mom i know moms can be strict or overprotective but now in this condition..i can forget everything..i want everything to be normal again she;s young for this problem..!everything is gonna be ok!if i believe in this it may happen..!

i will try to be happy..right now i’m not…since my mom is in this condition…why is this happening to her..?i must not leave the hope..

lately i dont feel very good..i dont feel happy at all…when i think why this happens i just realise that i feel empty…i dont know why…what’s wrong..?

i.. yesterday i read an article about depression i found it very interesting but as a was reading i fond some things very familiar..do i get depression??i feeling a bit mess nowadays… my boyfriend is somehow like bored i think i am trying to make every day different and full sweeteness…i don’t know… i don;t feel him as he was before.it’s xmas and i feel so sad… i want 2007 to be a good year…

suddenly, i feel so alone…my mood is not good…whats the matter with me..nothing makes me happy..my faith fades out..why?what misses from my life?i should be happy since i am healthy i have my family etc.am i ungratefull?

lately for some reasons i have lost my good mood…. i feel a little depressed…i dont know why..i m trying hard for my job,my relationship..and..i dont know.i m looking forward to christmas to relax and enjoy the break!i want to cheer up but i don’t..no one feels me.i just can write hear..i also stopped to pray at night..and i cant find answer to all these..i will try to get over it!

happiness…is it dificult to find it?i dont know.. it is said that happiness is hidden in small everyday things!i think thats true..in small moments you can find happiness.just a hug from a person you want,or playing with your pet..or shopping,going for coffee with your friends..to be your family united..lots of things…you tell me!