overcome bulimia

i’ve been getting really sick recently and it’s probably attributed to poor nutrition. i’ve relapsed since my last entry. i can’t seem to stop by myself. i’ve talked to my mom about it recently which was very difficult. i’m going to start seeking professional help soon. i feel as if i’ve lost control over myself and my life in so many ways.

...of not throwing up. it’s been a pretty easy transition. the first few days were really difficult and i was afraid to eat very much food at all, knowing that there would be no way to reverse my decision. whenever i felt stressed about food or my weight, i would exercise, which made me feel better and more in control.
i wasn’t very active before, so i haven’t gained too much weight. i understand my body will need some time readjust its metabolism, so i’m trying my best to be patient with it.
for the most part, i’m pretty happy and very proud of myself. i think the biggest change took place in my head when i acknowledged to myself that i had a real problem.
some things i’ve noticed since i’ve stopped binging & purging:
-i have so much more energy and i no longer need a nap in the middle of the day.
-i actually like exercising!
-my face has gotten smaller, because my glands aren’t as swollen from all the purging.
-i’ve been a lot less stressed and feel more accomplished.

i realized today how big of a problem this really is, and i want to regain control of life.
i guess the first step is to identify all my binge triggers and try to avoid them at all costs. i definitely think i deserve better than how i’ve been treating myself for the past 6 years.

i’ve been trying to stop this past week.
i went from purging 4-5 times a day to maybe once or twice. it’s really difficult.

i noticed just a couple of days ago that my teeth are see-through from acid wear. i don’t know what to do.
how do i protect my teeth from further damage? somebody please help me.