be well-balanced and know my worth

The. one. thing. always on my mind.
It’s what I fight for every day, in every controversy.
This seems like the wall between me and happiness. Once I know my worth, everything will come my way!
Once I know that people disagreeing with me, criticizing me, or getting angry with me don’t mean that they don’t love me anymore – then everything will bring me joy.
I have to know that I’m irreplacable. Because everyone is. That I’m lovable for being me, with whatever skills and flaws I may have and be.

I doubt I’ll ever be well-balanced, but I have come much closer to knowing my own worth. I know I am a great person and that I do not always have to be the one saving the situation (as I’m not always the one who’s “ruined” it!). Embarassing silences get less embarassing when you just leave them be.

Still, I’d like to feel anger more than I do now – I feel sadness when someone criticizes me, sadness that this person is probably right – instead of anger that this person dare insult me!
I’d like to know my worth and rights. That I have the right to be exactly as I am and like as long as it doesn’t hurt anyone – and that I don’t always have to be the one apologizing.