i want to fall in love with someone who loves me as much as i love them!

Unfortunately, that didn’t last very long. I don’t seem to see any flaws in people until a few weeks of dating have gone by. He was sweet and honest, yes. He was also close-minded and anti-social, both of which I can’t really deal with.

On the prowl again. Let’s hope there’s something good for me around the corner!

crosses my fingers

I am extremely close now…give me another month or so, and I will be able to check this one off.

I’m in a new relationship now. I can’t beleive I’ve found such an honest, giving man. Life is strange, but I can definitely learn to deal with it!

I really do not think this goal will ever be realized. I haven’t been here in a long time, and I’m reading my old entries. I don’t understand why I’m allowing myself to still run around in circles with you. No matter how many discussions we have, or fights, nothing changes. You never do what you say and I’m tired of feeling worthless.

While this goal may never be complete, it is still something I long for. So much. I pray the day will come that I can check this off of my list.

That’s it. I am so sick of men and falling in love with them, and having them fuck me over. Take your commitment phobia and shove it. Don’t you ever hang up on me again. You will regret that one. I can forgive you cheating on me with a married woman. I can forgive you making me look a childish moron in front of your friends. I can handle your emotional torment. I could handle your fear of commitment. But now you’ve crossed the line. Absolutely no respect. You weren’t drunk, we hadn’t been in a huge fight. There is no excuse.

Anyway, after his little display of love today, I’ve vowed that I will find someone who will love me as much as I love them. I know I’m hard to handle sometimes, but all my ex boyfriends handled me just fine. You know why? Because they gave a shit.

I should’ve went to Boston. I always make the wrong choices. Dammit.