i have decided i dont want a house. i use to really want a house so i could have a place to get away from all the annoying people that seem to want to be around me. like this man in the room currently who wont go away long enough so i can begin this. so am beginning anyway so as to ignore him, and hopefully i am not as irritated as i sound. no i take that back i am definitely as irritated as i sound. but i don’t want my own place….? gee really? how will i survive? i dont think i can, but the upkeep of a house, the responsiblity, the hastle, the money, the commitment i know i dont have the discipline to tolerate. i dont think i can deal with it if i do. but apt living is a pain in the ass, been there done that, and no at the last second i decided to back out of yet another commitment to stay put. i dont want to sit, stand. i do not follow these orders, so instead am tethered to hearth and home. which i currently despise for the stated reasons above.
no i dont want material things. i really dont. i hate the t.v. ok so i have a thing for computers, technology and stuff of that sort… but to me that is becuz it serves a purposeful purpose…erm its productive, useful. i havent bought one scap of clothing… in months. i know being a girl how can i? right… rolls eyes… oh wait i bought some shoes. dont give me that crap i feel that if the other ones were literally falling apart i can if i want to. besides dont go all “oh she is so the girl” becuz i am so not the girl, they were sneakers, black, and currently have horse shit all over them, so accept that or i will rub your nose all in it.
gee i think i am feeling touchy right now, just a bit. anyway… furniture is pain and bitch to move when you suddenly get bored where you are currently. yes i have a certain love for pillows but the whole couches, chairs, tables, room accessory things i dont much like. yeah i would like to build those things but i dont care to be owning them.
and cars man, oh man… what a rant that is causing to bubble up inside me. i like cars, really useful functional things, but again a pain in the ass to keep up with the maintance and the jones. really what is it with people and wanting to buy a new car every two years? you are such a fucking idiot!!! what a waste of money, material, and space(both you and the cars you indorse in reproducing)i mean come on… really do you need that much junk? did you know if you buy a volvo and drive it a 1000000 miles they will give you a car? free!!! ho… that is so cool. i mean what happen to passing a thing down, through the generations, does an airlum mean nothing these days?
no i dont need any of this stuff as far as i am concerned. and personally the necessities i do need, i think i want to make them more versatile, say… multi functional. i dunno i am thinking about traveling right now. its not going to happen, but i so want to get away from this place, its killing me inside ok, no dont look at this as a cry for help its not… i just am venting. but ya kno life on the road, you really dont need all that crap the before said mention. ok the car… but the car is a beast i want to take out back and shoot, besides i honestly dont think it can make a 1000 mile road trip, to just anywhere.
so what do i really need?
food
clothing
decent shelter (i am willing to pay tax, if the gov’t wants to provide public housing to maintain as i travel)
my laptop
art supplies
raw materials
pen and paper
water
coffee
portable tunes (ok maybe i should invest in an ipod)
vetenarian assistance
lawyer
job
free information access
feminine necessities
toletries
soap, hygenien products
a gun (for anyone who wants to come between me and the basic essentials of life)
and yeah i would be a happy camper.
