Be all who God has called me to be

Sometimes I wonder if God can still use me even though I’m constantly worrying and never take any sort of risks. I look so much at the problem (anxiety) that I completely lose sight of the fact that my Saviour Jesus has won the battle against my flesh and is actually the one fighting my battles. I settle for complacency so much. I allow myself to just get by and exist instead of live. Thank You, Jesus, that You have promised me life abundantly. I am His beloved. I do know deep in my heart that I have been transformed, but when I am pressed, that knowledge of my new identity does not come out. It needs to make the connection from my head to my heart. I want to live as if there was no tomorrow and serve this awesome God, the creator of the universe, that found me!

I was listening to a song by Nichole Nordeman that said “You make me want to live.” He does. Jesus makes me want to step out and live with the passion and abundance of life that He came to give me. He makes me brave. Unfortunately, I go back into my shell of fear the second I try and step out. I know, though, in my heart of hearts, that this person I have become who is just getting by or who is miserable at times is not me. I’ve been given the mind of Christ and the heart that houses God Himself. I’ve been justified and purified in the eyes of God, and He sees me as Braveheart. He sees me as someone who can slay dragons, not someone who freaks out at every little thing and hides. Jesus, help me to embrace the calling that You have placed on me. I know that I am opposed, but greater is He is who is in me than he who is in the world.

I know that God has great plans for my life. He has called me to be His child and for me to find myself in His great love for me. I want to take hold of everything that He has for my life and find my satisfaction in Him. He has called me to great things, and has called me to change the world simply because I live in it. So much of the time, I allow myself to live so much less than what I was called, but I do know that God is faithful to work on me every second of my creation.