learn to trust God completely, knowing He is in control and all things work together for His glory

Someone at church told me something amazing. We were in prayer circles and I asked the ladies to pray about the youth camp that I’m going to this weekend. I have anxieties about the camp in general; I’m hoping that no major incidents will happen, that everyone will get along, that the buses will be fine, etc. We prayed, and as we were being seated, a lady said to me, “So many teens are depressed and broken nowadays. God bless you for going to the camp, because you can really make an impact in their lives.” I always wonder why I have anxiety. People tell me that it’s because I don’t trust God or that I’m in the flesh. I never knew that God can still use me to bring the kingdom of God to a person’s life through my emotional struggle. I am able to take the focus off of myself and use my issues to affect change in a person’s life. I’m not a useless vessel. That lady didn’t even know the impact of what the Holy Spirit said through her. God created me on purpose for a purpose, and what Satan has done in my mind can’t even take away the tiniest fraction of what God wants to do through me. This too shall pass. All I can do is get lost (or found, rather) in His great love for me.

I went back in my devotional journal from this past year and I’ve really seen how God has been faithful. At the end of this term for uni, I believed that this year would be the lowest and least fruitful one I’ve ever had. Turns out that it was the highest, with the most growth, despite my circumstances. God brought me through the fire to learn how to depend on Him, and honestly, I couldn’t go back. What I have lost over this past year, He has given me tenfold (an understatement). Now I know that I truly can trust in Jesus and be found in His great love for me. I am so grateful to those who helped lead me to life and healing in Jesus this year and who walked by my side while I was at the bottom. My life is in His hands, which is the safest and most secure place to be.

I think we all know that God is in control, but it needs to make the connection from our heads to our hearts. Once it does that, we will transformed and learn to rely on the One who has secured our salvation in Christ! We’re all pulling for you, so stand upright and keep the faith!

Matthew 6:34