Remember the good memories about my nana

Well last night my nana passed away. When we saw her it was a relief to see her so peaceful compared to all the other times we had seen her. The nurses told us it wouldn’t be long before she went so we stayed with and held her. I like to think she could hear and feel us holding her hand so she wasn’t alone. But just watching her gradually breathing less and less until she had finally gone was peaceful in a way as we knew she didnt go in pain, she just fell asleep and never woke up. That moment took away all the bad times we’ve seen her and I’ll never forget it. I’m just happy that shes not suffering no more.

I’ve always been close to my nana and shes always given me everything spoilt me rotten! Now shes dying shes got lung cancer and in a way ts like we’ve lost her already because shes not the same person anymore. Over the past month or so all the good memories have just been replaced with how she is now and its so sad I don’t want my memories of her to be like this. I want to remember ‘my nana’ and not the nana now. I love her to pieces and always will and now I need to stop thinking about the bad things now and remember all the good things. The only sad thing about that is that it makes me want her back so much as t all came as such a shock that she was dying it just kind of happened and her confusion came on quite quick.

There are so many things I could think of but they are all stuck in the back of my mind. I need to find them and keep my real nana alive even when shes gone.

(I love you nana forever and always xxx)