it’s amazing that by reading all the comments here; even if this is just 43things.com it really really helps and provides motivation for us people that need it.
i’m not alone…you are not alone.
we are all battling.
this could out little support group and it’s better i think; because i say more written than spoke.
yes, we all drink way more than we should, but just by writing about it we are helping each other.
i’ll keep pouring my heart here and perhaps that’ll help me pour less liquor next time.
i love you all…
i know i’m a drinker; i know i love drinking, i love my beer and i accept that…i also know that i can’t abuse it.
i’ve been doing so good since last time i said i would stop drinking so much and i just picked it up again and i realize that is not about not drinking but about been careful.
about eating right, and drinking normally, not like i’ve been drinking lately…so, i want to start taking care of myself when it comes to this issue.
i love life and if i keep abusing it soon, it’ll be over.
that i take this goal off my list.
i bought a 12 pack 2 weeks ago and 5 beers still remain in the refrigerator; about 2 months ago i would’ve gone thru those 12 in one stand.
but i’ve managed to change and improve and i’m proud and thankful.
i plan on maintaining this because it has helped me and shaped me into a better person.
special thanks to all of you who helped me thru this.
i’m a happier person now that i know what i could live without.
so, even though i did drink the other day, i haven’t had a drink since and honestly…i don’t care.
tomorrow it’ll be a month since i decided to not drink and limit my alcohol consuption.
i feel like now i could actually control what i do and how much i drink.
been broke also helps since i don’t have money to go out there and drink a lot :)
so, the world stopped, i had withdrawals and everything sucked, then it stopped sucking and now what i thought was a boring and quiet world…has turned into something wonderful which makes me feel…free.
yep, i did. BUT it was ok.
i didn’t overdue it and i didn’t feel sick and i had a blast.
the best part is that i don’t have that desire of drinking EVERY DAY because now i know that i’m good without it…now i could handle just drinking casually.
Today 8/8/06 will be 2 weeks sober. i can’t believe i’m actually going thru with it and i have NOT changed my lifestyle, i’ve been to bars, clubs and all the other places i go to, hang out with the same crazy people YET i have managed to deal with it which proves that is not the place or the people IS ME and if i want to do something the only one who influences me is…myself.
the withdrawals are minimum and i don’t know for how long i’m gonna stop drinking…my goal is to NOT need it the way that i used to need it..but to drink casually and without getting myself sick.
i miss it still…but doing this makes me feel free and accomplished.
of course, i couldn’t do it without my wonderful friends and the people who are in one way or another helping me thru this.
not ONE drop of alcohol.
the weekend was so different; it went at its right pace…it was weird yet kind of enjoyable. i had withdrawals symtomps all weekend which amazed me; i never thought it was real…but it is. i layed down to sleep and the world was spinning as if i drank a keg…crazy shit.
well so, today is 6 days sober…and counting.
so i went and i did good…i felt kinda stupid to be at a bar and not drink but the band was great and i got lost in the music…
today is friday and i’m freaking out…i’m trying to seek out information about how to deal with this…i can’t believe that i’m so dependant on alcohol, but i am.
accepting is the first step to recovery right? so, i guess i am going good so far.
the weekend’s here…
wish me luck.
today (07/27/06) is my first day sober for a loooong time…i need to stop due to health problems. it sucks…today my friend has a show in a bar…here’s where my self-control gets tested.