stick to my FLYLADY routines

This is slowly getting better. I still have a block when it comes to washing up; for some reason even the smallest bit overwhelms me and I put it off but my timer is helping me here. I enjoy tackling a new room every week because I like to be able to see the progress. Still having trouble finishing a room off though, I get a bit panicky but I can’t work it out. For example, I cleaned the whole bathroom and the last bit to do was the windows. I have put them off until the next time I’m in the bathroom zone even though I had time to do them. At least I’m recognising this in myself, even if it makes no sense! I must push through and finish something!!

I think the flylady routine is too difficult for me, even with babysteps. So for now I am taking it back to little tiny ant steps and after spending 15 minutes on the computer doing “my stuff” (ie having fun) I have then been dealing with 5 things in the house, whether that’s clothes or washing up or stuff to be put out for recycling. I’ve only done it for a day so far but already things seem on the up.

My timer really IS my best friend. So I’m taking the theory from Flylady but using my own methods for the moment. You never know, I might even work up to a full 15 minutes of housework eventually!

Oh i don’t feel any further along with this than when i first found flylady 5years ago! Feeling like such a useless wretch at the moment. I’ve just got out of a relationship which demanded all my spare attention due to bad moods. I need a yay to remember to do my routines. I may just take to sticking instructions on the wall’s. They won’t make the place look any worse.

Now the summer is basically over and my whole life is slipping into more of a routine I am finding it easier to stick to a couple of things. I am washing up twice a day, and it really does only take about 5 minutes each time, it’s amazing. I normally leave the washing up to spread all over the kitchen until there’s nothing left to use and then beat myself up while I wash up as much as will fit on the drainer. This does not make me happy. So I am pleased with myself for keeping on top of this lately.

I have also stuck to a morning routine, more or less. Getting up at a decent time, getting dressed from head to toe (make up/hair etc) and putting the washing on.

I have also composed a small morning routine for my 4 year old son. It is written as he can read and I have stuck it on his bedroom door. It is the things we do normally, but now he can look and see what needs to be done next, without me telling (nagging??) him. He seems pleased with it. He needs boundaries to feel happy as he (probably) has Aspergers Syndrome.

All in all these little steps have made me feel much calmer and ultimately, less guilty and less crochety. When my son wanted me to take him out to play on his bicycle today I was ready to do it, ther was no “wait a minute, i’ve got to find my shoes” or “when I’ve put the washing out”. Just a simple “yes” and off we went. It felt so nice.

..but today I got up with a bit more optimism than usual and just got on with tidying up a bit. It really is that dreaded perfectionism that renders me practically useless. I wonder how I can get rid of that nagging little voice in my head. The thing is, I hardly notice it because it’s so normal, but it really brings me down. Hmmm…something to think about while I do a 27 fling boogie!

I’ve lost it again. I really think it is a hard thing to do for us easily sidetracked types. I am sat on here with my son behind me watching Cribs(!), the ironing board and full ironing basket is next to me, there’s crap all over the living room floor, the washing pile is out of control and there’s so much washing up to do I feel like crying. Why can’t I do this???

I am managing to do my morning routine pretty much ok, and my Mondays are starting to feel natural now, I get the home blessing over in 3 chunks on Mon, Tue and Wed. Tuesday and Wednesday have been more of a challenge, I seem to run out of enthusiasm by then. The before bed routing is getting polished at the moment and the nicest thing about this is that I don’t feel like I am chasing my tail all the time, I actually feel as though I do actually have some control over my life and I have more energy to cope with the more challenging surprises life throws my way. I think it is because now it is not everything that is a surprise anymore like it used to be. Yeah! I love that Flylady!!