eat healthy

Today I did not follow the diet and it was an utter mess.

Tomorrow I’ll start dieting again. Good luck me :S

During this last week I’ve been on a diet which was suggested to me by me gym trainer. It is a very balanced and healthy diet. Still, I did not lose any weight and I felt like I had overeaten most of the time. I just felt too full.
Today, when I stepped on the scale I saw I had gained some weight. This, in addition to some minor unpleasant events that made me feel bitter and frustrated, led me to binge-eating this afternoon. As a result, I did not go to the swimming pool to train (I had eaten too much I couldn’t possibly swim).
Too much pressure, I feel lost. I need to meditate. I’m so confused and I feel caught in the undertow.

I still believe in this diet though.
Starting tomorrow I’m going to start dieting again, with some minore changes that will hopefully lead me to lose weight.

Breakfast: cereals w/semi-skimmed milk (quantity depending on how hungry I am); 1 light yoghurt; vitamins.

11 am: one sandwich

2 pm: pasta and salad, 1 apple

6 pm: 2-3 fruit or milkshake

dinner: lean fish/meat or 2 boiled eggs w/veg

1.5 litres water per day
0.5 litres isotonic drink
2 herbal teas before bed.

Once a week I can have what I like (but I should stick to the same times as during the week). For example I could have chocolate and biscuits at 11am, ice cream and biscuits at 6pm, and pizza for dinner.

I believe in this diet. I am going to give it another try. Oh boy… the single problem that has haunted me for my whole life has been food. I hate being overweight and I feel looked down on by healthier and slimmer people. I know most of these people are shallow, but it hurts anyway. Besides, my overweight might be the reason for my being single. I’m 36 and overweight, in spite of all the exercise I take on a daily basis. I’m living a crippled life.

It’s going bad. Last week I only had carb and fat – every single day, and nothing else. This will kill me. Yesterday it was better, the quality of what I ate sucked, but at least the quantity was OK.
Today I start exercising again, so I hope I’ll get back on track, eat healthy and lose weight. I need to. I want to.

Instead of preparing my dinner as planned, I anxiously waited for DD’s phone call. By the time I realized the phone call would never come, my mind was blurred and my willpower weakened by hunger. So all I could do was binge.

What I should have done instead:
fuck the phone call! I needed to stick to my plan, and cook. And focus on my needs. Just as planned. Had the phone call come in, I would have found a way to sort things out.

Herbal tea would have been helpful too.

Let’s hope tomorrow gets better.

I’ve lost 10 pounds since last November. My diet is really good now, with very few lapses.
Healthy breakfast, veg for lunch, meat/rice/pasta/fish/pizza/legumes and veg for dinner. Most afternoons I drink a 5 orange squeeze, and herbal tea in the evening.
I think I could mark this as done, but I’d rather wait at least one more month before taking it out from my list.

However, well done me! ;)

I’ve gotta give it another go. My liver is already suffering for my crazy unbalanced diet. I’ll take another blood test in one month, and until then my diet has gotta be good.
I’ll jot down a sensible diet: it is easier if I know in advance what I’m going to eat during the day (I’m not gonna post it though, somehow I feel it is too personal to be made public).

I’m very worried about the Xmas vacations, I really don’t know how I’m gonna handle spending a whole week with my family. My mum is going to try and feed me 24/7 and the pool will be closed, so… It’s gonna be tough.

I want to stop this subtle suicide. I know I cannt go on like this forever. My body can only take in so much.

I want to stop this. I want to stop this. I want to stop this.

my diet went pear-shaped. It’s a disaster :(

Yes, I’m ready to take care of my diet now.
Tomorrow I’ll think about it, and post my eating guidelines here.
Hopefully it’ll work: this seems to be the right timing for me because I have little work pressure and overall I feel good and calm.
Going to the pool is helping me a lot with improving my mood.