remember the things I used to believe in as a kid

my parents were the greatest. I’ve been missing my dad. I wish my mom wasn’t an ‘alcoholic pill-popping make my life waaaay harder than is has to be’ type person. I want my dad to not be a cheater/piece of crap. I want to BBQ in the summer with him and feel at home when we exchange sarcastic remarks. I want to talk to him and realize that there is someone in this world that I resemble…my thoughts, mannerisms, likes/dislikes. I want to feel like a daughter…not an orphan. I want to see what it feels like to be a child…even though I’m not anymore. I want to get rid of the fact that I missed out and it isn’t fair.

1) All people are good
2) I will never be “old”
3) God will take care of everything
4) School is fun!
5) I should get 8 hours of sleep
6) I would find my “prince” and we’d live happily ever after…
7) The most important part of the day is play time
8) Mama will always be there…
9) The same mailman we had in CA would hand deliver my mail to mamaw and papaw in TN :)
10) Being outside in the rain is a FuN thing!
11) Things will get better
12) Playing on the swings was the only thing that made me feel free if I closed my eyes until the very top (still does!)
13) I would grow up to be a wife, a mom, a teacher, a writer, ...and a cashier. ( and live in a country house with 2 weeping willows and a hammock in the middle)
14) The countdown to Christmas should begin in June…nevermind, I still believe this..