lose weight

I’ve started seeing a personal trainer. I may be at a healthy weight now, but because I put it on so quickly, it’s all fat and no muscle. So he’s going to get my ass in shape. Plus he gave me a meal plan to follow – it’s designed for people with insulin resistance, so it has no refined carbs in it, which are generally my trigger foods – so I can lose fat but gain muscle. My ideal body is changing.

In my quest to overcome bulimia, I’ve mostly stopped purging. However, the drive to binge is still there, and I’m only able to resist it every other day. Thus, I’ve gained quite a bit of weight. But I’m determined to lose it in a healthy way this time! No fasting or eating only 150 calories per day – that’s only counterproductive, anyway. I am walking home from work every day and trying to eat only healthy foods, including protein at every meal to keep me feeling full and keeping sugar low to keep my blood sugar stable. Wish me luck!

Clenbuterol is the best invention ever. I’ve lost seven pounds in the past three days!! Still a long way to go to reach my goal, but I’m starting to think it might be possible!!

I joined SparkPeople today to help me with my goals. It’s a really supportive, free, weight-loss site. I know I can do this.

I know this goal might seem a little counterproductive, seeing as how another of my goals – my personal challange, no less – is to overcome bulimia. However, I’m hoping to do this weight loss in a healthy way, and am hoping that seeing that results can come from eating right instead of binging and puring will help me in that goal as well. It’ll also help boost my self-esteem and self-respect.