Live in the present

I highly recommend a CD called Happiness by this French buddhist monk. I am working on letting go and just embracing what comes to me in my work life, health, and relationships. I got this from my public library. He is a humourous plain speaking teacher. He talks about dealing with worry and anger and our conceptions of self. How so much that we pursue and rush to judgment about is based on assumptions that are really goofy and damaging to our spirits. You can find lots on him by googling too. His story of the pissing tree flies is priceless.

Since I undertook to get out of debt (one of my other Things), I find I am impatient to get it done and want that part of the future to get here already. That goal will take me about four years and I think I am fretting and obsessing over it too much. Staying focussed is good to make sure I attain that goal but in the meantime I have four years of life to live. I have been finding it hard to just focus on the here and now, because I am thinking about a job shift too and then I worry too much. It is stupid because everything always works out in the end. I don’t know why I go to that anxiety place as I am generally a pretty positive person.