Figure out what I want

I’m still not completely sure about what exactly I want, but I have made a step towards some direction. I’ve been with my boyfriend for over a year now and my eye has constantly wondered. So, to no suprise, other guys walked in to my life and I let them dangle. But I’m sick of being that girl! So, I decided to break all ties with them. I straight up told them that I don’t want to do anything to hurt my boyfriend and I’m not breaking up with him for them. I stopped flirting and leading them on too. I guess that’s one step I’ve reached in finding my ultimate want, my boyfriend. I want him.

I can never decide what I want. I want to be with my boyfriend, but I don’t. I want to stop drinking and smoking weed, but I don’t. I just want to figure it out. So I take personality tests online and read my horoscope. But, they can’t even tell me what I want. alittle help here!