be more disciplined

Cake for lunch, cake for dinner…

I’m just so sick of V-8 and cheese sticks. I need a better plan.

But my discipline has been nonexistent. If I’m at home, instead of doing something useful like cleaning, or yoga, or exercise, or even relaxing in a healthy way, I’m glued to the computer, house-shopping and obsessively checking my bank account. It’s a beautiful day today and I made the commitment to myself to take a walk, but all I want to do is take a nap.

When I’m stressed about money, everything falls apart for me. I’m scared to death to go to the dietitian tomorrow.

I need to pull it together, TODAY.

I wonder why I become so undisciplined when I feel unloved and misunderstood?

I can’t stand how undisciplined I am when it comes to my diet and exercise. I told myself before I did anything this morning I would do 30 minutes of cardio, and do my light weight routine. However, here I sit. As soon as I finish this entry, I swear to god and whowever is reading this that I am getting up off my ass and keeping my commitment to myself.

I wish they made a discipline pill.

As part of my plan to become more disciplined, I meet with a nutrition/exercise professional every week. She helps me set goals, and one of the goals this week was to exercise 3 times this week for 30 minutes each time. I set the goal on Thursday, and here it is Wednesday and I’ve only exercised once, which means I need to exercise today and tomorrow BEFORE 9:15 AM! What is wrong with me that I wait until the last minute?? I wish I liked exercise, but it’s been 100+ degrees here and I’m just tired and hot and don’t feel like it (whine whine whine). It does help to have that goal, and I know I’ll complete it, but I wish I didn’t always procrastinate until the very last minute.